Saturday, October 25, 2008
I don't feel too good today. Thinking about too many stuff. Save it for later. I blog about today stuff first.
Today, we 7 people go plaza singapore for outing today. Me, wj, kw, cz, enxuan, enhui, yiqi 7 ppl as usual. Anyway the guy eat at jp first at "longball" first before meeting the gals whom we later meet at the entrance of jp. Then we go plaza singapore. Super tall la. We kinda scam by the gal as they go take lift while we are already at the escalator -.-". 7th story high leh. Still need walk a lot somemore. But we make them wait for us by visting the shops at 7th story until they call us. Haha.
Then they want go watch high school musical 3, which the guys don wan due to high cost. As for me, I feel it like kinda sian. So, we spilt up. Go the zone X as cz wan play the "zoom,zoom,zoom" game. Which the people are already playing and we wait for, like 1.5 hours, for one people to finish playing. wth. They all so rich la. 1 game 3 dollar leh. Such a waste of money. The people play for few hours!! Imagine the money wasted! Anyway in the meantime kw and i play photohunt and in the 3rd game in which all 4 of us play, we get 4th! haha. kw named it as eyecandy. Then cz go play the zoom game and use 8 dollar i think.
After that kw go buy jj new album. Then we meet with enhui and yiqi as enxuan go already. Then yiqi go take bus and left with 5 of us taking train. As usual, they try to umm... what word to use?? sabo? Anyway they try to make me and enhui together in the train but kw happen to be with us while the other 2 go another part of the train. Cunning. Then kw say he very bright.
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Aww come on. We are just friends. i think...haha... Don't make things awkward. Soo tired now. No time say about the stuff i that i am thinking just now.
Okay i say a bit here. Just now i have this thinking, Why am i here? Why i exist? I actually exist. I can feel the water flowing though my hands and actually in a body. Think about it for a while. About having consciousness. But the scary thought will be, What happen if i do not exist? What happen when we passed away? Do we fell into... nothingness? Or we exist as spirits? When i try to imagine that if i do not exist, it kinda bother me. Why are we here? Is this some kind of test? If so, a test for what?
Also, it also strike me that how a simple mistake can affect our entire life. Just one choice you made, one thing you say, one action you made, your life can change to good or bad. I admit, i... have made some choices which i regret even now. The thing that we always say is "what if". I am sure many would like to have the power to turn back time and undo our mistakes. But we can't. We can't. We can only walk forward, never backward until the end. But what is the end? Death? Or something even further? I do not know.
Fate always like to play trick on people. Like we might have a crush on some people but they are not your true love. The true one might be right in front of you but you never noticed. Learned this when i watch disney channel just now. lol. (kim possible advisement and a movie called princess something, forget) Often, it may be too late, when the true one left then you realize. Ahhh... love... A strange feeling. It is source of suffering and sadness and at the same time source of happiness.... Like a double edged sword...
*yawn* too tired. wow long post. Wonder why i write such many "crap". Well some people think it as crap. Some people call it the search for wisdom. I feel it is a mix of both. haha. Good night.
Fight on 10:09 PM
Although i don think this is actuate haha
